Who Would I be?

If I thought to be anything as a business woman, Who Would I Be? Growing up I wanted to a hairdresser, dancer, makeup artist, fashion merchandiser even a writer. I felt like I always had a creative spirit when it came to that. I used to cut up my stockings, socks, and made clothing for my barbies, do their hair, etc. I also wrote poetry, it was an escape for me, escape from the darkness, plus at certain times my mom seemed proud of me. She used to say “You’re bright, but only if you would apply yourself”. But I didn’t have the spirit to apply myself.

When I look back, I was missing the key people, words, actions without pain to apply myself. My mom was definitely there. She taught me to be strong, work hard, and not depend on anyone; I can’t act like my mom didn’t show me love or tell me she loved me, however she was also battling pain and hurt also the tools she knew. There was this “universal” way of parenting or should I say a “cultural” way of parenting, but not necessarily parenting me as I am.

As life went on and things happened what I would be turned into what I had to be, and I lived that way until today! Now answering this question, I would be exactly who I am Life Coach Leyllani, a public speaker, a walking testimony. Why? Because I believe with my story, my experiences, and growth I can at least touch one person.

When I spoke at my mother’s event two years ago, I felt empowered, I felt a spirit in me that I NEVER felt. I felt like my purpose was brewing inside of me, but it wasn’t my time. Although, it was the start of my pain, it was also the start of my rebirth.