Other words for self-doubt…

In my recent Instagram post, I noted how unpredictable life can be and the uncertainty of it all. Although we strive to trust and believe in our faith, self-doubt and insecurities can show up out of nowhere. Then while thinking of what to write, I found there are 13 synonyms for “self-doubt”, self-loathing, self-reproach, hopelessness, self-disgust, and one that stuck out the most was SELF-DISTRUST. That word spoke volumes, as I believe as humans, we allow insecurities to take over trusting who we are.

As a result of my distrust, I have granted people, places, and things access to me that never should have been there permitting the fear of rejection, abandonment, acceptance and all the things that is not who I am to take over my decision making. I was not comfortable trusting my intuition and at times, mixed what I thought was anxiety and/or past trauma triggering me, instead of trusting my gut. Don’t get me wrong sometimes the feeling of apprehension is a sign, telling you something isn’t right but when you don’t listen or choose not to listen, in fear of being without will cause more “self-distrust” in the long run.

Learning how to trust myself has been a process. Because that means leaving external needs/validation behind, a coping method I adopted from early in life, to now having to tap into the internal part of me and trust that I am doing what’s best for self. It has required me to take a step back, at times removing myself from the situation and determining where this is coming from. Is it from past experiences? Is it really about ME? Or is it fear of the outcome?